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Maya Aimoto

Hi~! Maya here! o(^▽^)o Don't leave me hanging, tell me what you wanna know!

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[clear_eyes]

[Maya would receive a link to this supposedly private entry on Rachel's on-line journal around the time things start going wrong.]

Rachel Hishimura 2/15/16

Dad messaged me today to give me an excuse for why he couldn't be around at Christmas. He was spending it with some "close friends", which usually means he's spending time with his girlfriend or hanging out with some other cops. I expected this. He always does this. It wouldn't bother me if he didn't leave the possibility open. I guess I should expect him to lie or break promises by this point, but the season makes it hurt worse. Mom says not to worry. That we'll have a Merry Christmas without him. She's right, we always do, I just wish he cared about how I felt. I guess I have something new to talk to my doctor about next month.

[strongestheart]

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Maya is. Pretty sure she's not supposed to be seeing this. But ... should she not say anything, and hope maybe Rachel will not realize it was sent here or... sigh.]

Uh, ah. Rachel?

[clear_eyes]

[When Rachel sees a reply to this, her blood runs a bit cold. She knew her posts were being shared, but. She didn't want or expect this to be one of them. Of all the private observations, of all the venting she's done, why did it have to be something like this?

... But she can't show how bothered she is. Not when it comes to a matter like this one.]

Something's gone wrong. A few of the private posts on my journal have been shared with people. I apologize, Maya.

[strongestheart]

I, uh. I figured it had to be something like that.

But, are you alright? I know I shouldn't be reading something that private, but...

[clear_eyes]

It's not like you knew that going in. It's fine.

I'm alright, this just kind of ripped the bandaid off on some things.

[Again, she feels worse than she's admitting to, but. Got to keep up appearances.]

[strongestheart]

Still, I'm sorry. I can understand if it's not exactly something you want to talk about. But you've got friends if you ever want to, right?

[clear_eyes]

... That actually means a lot to me, you know. More than you probably realize.

If you're up for it, I would be up for talking about it.

[strongestheart]

Uh, no problem! That's what we're here for...!

[That's what you say, right.]

If you wanted to, I'd be willing to listen. But.. only if you want to, okay?

[clear_eyes]

I need to be more honest with people I think.

But. Yeah. My mom and dad have been divorced for a while. He's not around a lot. He and mom never got along much, and I guess it'd be selfish to think they should stay together, but it's felt like he's never wanted to do anything with me either.

[strongestheart]

I'm sorry, Rachel. That's ... gotta be rough. I can't even really relate.

It makes any problems I might have with my parents seem kinda petty, heh.

But... it seems like your mom has done a good job raising you on her own...! You're a great person, it's his own loss that he's missing out!

[clear_eyes]

Everyone has problems of their own, Maya. That's something my therapist told me. They're all important to different people.

... You're right though. My mom and I have had our problems, of course. But we're working on them. We've made a lot of progress. It used to be I didn't know how to communicate with her at all but that's changed.

She's always tried to be there. Unlike him...

[strongestheart]

I can only guess what it's got to be like... But I'm personally very glad for what your mother has done!

Otherwise, I might not have the friend I do now, right?

Like I said, it's his loss. You do great in spite of him, and you should at least be proud there, I think.

[clear_eyes]

That's really very kind of you to say Maya. It doesn't come through very well in text, but I'm kind of floored by it.

And you're right. I just wonder if it's still okay to think of what might have been.

[strongestheart]

That's... not a problem, right? It's what friendsa re for! Or so they tell me.

But... I guess it's kind of hard to not imagine that, sometimes? Just don't let it take you over too much, okay?

[clear_eyes]

It's not a problem at all. I'm just not used to it. That'll probably change, though.

And I'll try not to. I will say, talking it out... it's made it easier not to for now.

[strongestheart]

Mm, I expect talking it out ... can probably help, too.

So, like. If you ever need to talk about it, or anything... I'm right here, y'know?

[clear_eyes]

The same goes for you, Maya. I'm here if you need someone to talk to, as well.

[strongestheart]

Absolutely! I'll keep you in mind, Rachel!

[Of course that requires Maya to have issues which make that necessary which totally isn't the case, right? Right? Hahahhaha...]

[clear_eyes]

That's what friends are for, right? Right.

[Rachel has some suspicions, but... well, let's give it some time.]

[strongestheart]

Well, yes! That is what I said!

Even if I'm still kind of figuring out how to do all that, heh!

[clear_eyes]

That's why I said it. So obviously, I think you're doing alright so far.

[strongestheart]

"So far," heh.

I have a hard time getting much further than that, most of the time.

[clear_eyes]

Well, your story isn't over yet. Mine isn't either. We both didn't have very much in our lives before, and now we do.

That's some kind of progress, right?

[strongestheart]

Mmm... yeah! You're right!

[As she does, Maya whips back around, for better or worse.]

So we've just gotta try and keep ourselves honest!

[clear_eyes]

Well then, I guess I'll just have to be forthcoming with as much as possible!